How to Disappear Completely

something is new... reborn.  for a while i've been in a disconnect... and it's been difficult for me.

 going through routine motions with no light to strive for...you forget how to feel alive. 

you're never a complete person...the more that falls into your life, the more that crumbles away beneath the new, eventually leaving everything you were behind. i've become buried beneath the new. i'm hating what i've become, and no longer have the pieces to put back together the life i once loved...the life i thought i loved. 

for now i'll just keep smiling with my blindfold on, even when the holes cut through it. there's no other plan but believe...

enjoy the new charade while it lasts...

Stockholm Syndrome

I need that escape...


The expectations have taken everything away; everything there was to strive and live for. There is no more pain, nor joy, nor sadness, nor worry. The only hope is inspiration to take the hand of the mind and guide it through the galaxy. Nothing will make sense anymore; it's all just a game.

...Everything is lost...




Where we go from here is up to you.

Lachrymal Gland Circuit ~ 涙腺回路

It's been a while.

I'm writing to you as if something is missing;
you can understand but you don't remember, also...

It's hard for me.
You seem so distant as if something is wrong;
you can hide your thoughts but the loneliness always shows

Please take this sincerely;
I can't see you anymore with this cage of rain all around me,
but I will try to hold your silhouette close to my heart....


...as you fade into the rain.